Dirty Thoughts...

BEWARE...don't read if you might be uncomforable.

SO...
at work today Nice Neighbor tells me her back is killing her. I immediately thought of Pod Neighbors. If they said a thing like that I would have said OMG was it that good last night? Did you get any sleep? Please tell me none of your kids heard you!
But I don't know Nice Neighbor too well yet (several months now). So instead I played it safe.
Oh no, were you doing yard work? Were you at the gym? What happened? Do you need drugs...because I have got plenty of those! (Of course it was only fair to run through the list of drugs I got from my that adorable oral surgeon this summer.)
No,
she said.

Can you believe that? She passed up FREE HEAVY DUTY drugs. WTF!

Apparently she was lifting something and hurt her back badly.

That got me thinking...remembering...and giggling all the way back to my room. I couldn't help but miss Pod Neighbors at that moment. We would have exchanged crazy sex stories and then went back to work.

Oh shit!

They all prayed.
What the hell was I supposed to do? I don't really mind that they did it, but it caught me off guard...and I had to sit and wait for my misery to be over.

Thankfully it only lasted for a moment.:)

All Sinners Welcome!

I saw that on a church sign a few months ago when I was driving to the coast with Hubby and Sofakitty. Honest, I ain't lying! I don't think they could take the heat if we actually stopped and went in. BeadWhore...I am concealing her identity... said a great line about a week ago that helped me see the light. I now know exactly how I feel about certain people trying to harm my monkeys.

Don't touch my fucking cards!

I have had it with the lack of management around me...just when I thought I wasn't really much of a rule follower...I realize I am-damn! These damn people get mad at my monkeys and tell them to pull cards in my room. As if! Deal with them in another way...get organized,but don't touch my fucking cards! I am totally annoyed and my monkeys must be astounded when I tell them to go back to green after others are mean!

In other news...
Has anyone been watching that Ugly Betty show? I saw part of it once...which was enough for me to add a name to my list.
No, not that list.

The other one,
the one that involves THE DRAWER.
Her boss on that show is totally adorable and well, someone has to say it...fuckable. Wow! That is about all I can say! I usually watch The Office, but I might have to switch. What's a girl to do? If Michael Vartan would pop up or Will Tippen would pop up I would be totally happy!

How far...

...am I willing to go.
I had this thing happen in my life a few weeks ago that seems to happen every few years. It occurs when I least expect it and it always forces me to mark another tally mark in the "dissapointment" column. I chatted with Dear Friend this evening for quite a while about the issue. He got me thinking. How far am I willing to run for Dissapointment? I haven't allowed Dissapointment inside my soul in years. It hurts too much. When I invest love and care, Dissapointment pushes me away. When I express interest, he makes fun. When I try to help...he fucks up BADLY. I don't think he wants me to let him in or anybody else for that matter. I have been coping with my tally marks for years, about 15 years to be exact.
The latest consequence...I knew it was coming,
sooner or later...is bad.
Now that it has arrived I am greeting it with a "told-you-so look." It is for the best...for Dissapointment, for me, for The Others. I can only imagine what this will do to The Others. I hope they can move on and let go...It's not their fault (they just don't know that). They too are sucked into Dissapointment's world. I have been lucky enough to remove myself as much as possible. So now I get to play the waiting game. Wait and see how bad the damage is. How well will The Others weather the storm? Hope for the best...be there for The Others...as much as possible. The truth is, my thoughts have turned so dark about Dissapointment in the past several years that I don't think I can really be there. It is one part of my life where I pass a great deal of judgement,REAL judgement. I harbor evil thoughts that I feel guilty about, but only sometimes...like tonight.